I’m going to say something here that may sound shocking and heartless. I’ve had it with pregnancy widgets. I’m jealous of the little floating baby. I’m envious of the graduation from leg buds and alien faces to cute little perfect baby-ness, while my e-uterus remains vacant and void of any such cuteness. My e-baby seems thousands of days away. As I watch your floating offspring’s progress, I am reminded how quickly my time is passing, childless.
The journey through pregnancy is marked with baby progress reports. Chapter by chapter of the popular pregnancy book de jouris devoured while learning about the developmental milestones of your fetus-to-be. Fertiles wallpaper their blogs and MySpace pages with week by week maturity reports. All the organs are fully formed. You should feel kicking soon. You should be able to tell the sex with ultrasound by next week. Blah.Blah….Blah.
I think growth through infertility deserves the same recognition. I am growing into a different person. I am developing a new reproductive awareness. My organs are fully formed. I’m alive and kicking. I have what looks like sex with an ultrasound from time to time. There is a parallel.
I’m making my own widget. I’m starting my own ‘month-by-month’ club. I invite you to watch my own infertility grow from non-existence to a living breathing being complete with legs and arms. Until a few months ago my infertility didn’t even exist. It has since formed a life of its own.
Join me next edition for ‘Infertility: The First Month’. During ‘The First Month’ we will review all the tools needed to get you through your newly diagnosed infertility. You’ll need to choose a reproductive endocrinologist, buy infertility books, and utilize a ’boo-hoo’ date calculator—which will tell you exactly how many weeks you have until you lose your mind completely.
Come on…get your own empty womb widget, and join me on my infertility journey!